After I posted yesterday, I had a chance to process a little better.
It took a while for me to get to the point where I'm out of H's grasp. I paid a price for my willingness to be flexible, which I was to a fault, before being taken to court & having it used against me.
I don't feel angry. I see the almost everyday e-mail requests as a way for him to continue the connection with me. That's why I would like to go with the court orders, so there isn't a need for constant contact. It may appear that it's just a matter of a day...it's not, it's a matter of him trying to keep control when it's slipping away.
I'm really happy with having a 3rd party for our exchange...wish I had done it earlier. It's a relief from the drama of H & his world.
I feel like I can handle whatever comes my way. I'm not afraid of what's to come. I was...I think he knew that, so it kept it going on...and on...and on.
