The journey begins

[ClingingToHope]

Typical BS today. Get up early to clean a bit around the apartment since it's my night. Turn phone on and STBXW has called and messaged. D7 woke up with a swollen eye. She got eaten alive by mosquitos at camp -- a camp she didn't pick but STBXW didn't put any thought into the summer, that was always my job.

She asks if I can take her to the immediate care clinic. Again, this morning was her early morning at work. She gets one of these every week. If I wanted to be an *ss I'd say no -- but I'm going to occasionally need her to switch so I can work running races. In fact, next summer I'm guessing I may have to ask her to flip-flop the entire summer.

So I have to play ball to a point.

I text back yes. She drops them off. I take D11 to her friend's house where she's going this week. She looked depressed. She said she wants to sell the house but she doesn't want to sell the house. She loves the house but she knows as long as they still own it I can't buy a house.

I told her I was torn. I hate that they have to move. I wish they could stay. But I also don't want them living there if STBXW finds another man.

D11 agreed. "It's our house. Me, D7, mommy and daddy."

She perked up when she got to her friend's house.

D7 and I headed to the clinic. It took an hour -- making me late for work. Normally that's not a problem but I need to finish a ton today to go to a baseball game tomorrow. Also, it cost $40.

Plus, STBXW told D7 she didn't have to go to camp today. Instead, she could go to her old daycare place. I'm not sure what that will cost.

There is no agreement in place on health care stuff. STBXW has a flex-spending plan so the stuff I spent money on is already being deducted from her check. So I went into my banking site and reduced my bi-weekly check by $40.

Daycare. I'm torn. Whatever I give the lady is tax deductible -- although I doubt I'll meet my minimum deduction. Still, this was my week to pay for camps so I'll write her a check.

Still bouncing around anger. The image of the motorcycle dude hanging out at my house is in my head. Shoot, she might be seeing him every night this week since she signed the girls up for vacation bible school which is located conveniently halfway between our house and where he lives.

Trying to focus on work instead. I did get a call back today from another woman in the church singles group. She missed the last couple of events and will not be there on the 4th. But she said she would make it on the 17th.

She's another one I'd be interested in asking out once the D is final. She's 35 and was divorced four years ago.

I'm not going to text the 31-year-old today. I'm supposed to see her on Sunday and I don't want to come off as clingy/needy.

OK. Time to focus.