Stop trying to make sense out of nonsense... the analysis will make you ill... I've been there... Just maintain your efforts on your goals and when you aren't doin that you do something fun to take your mind off the problems
Good point! I think I need to do some re-reading as well - to keep focused. I'm letting my feelings determine my actions rather than the other way around right now. I'll give myself a break though. It's just been this morning, so I can forgive a morning's worth, lol.
Last night, for H's birthday, I did cook a nice meal and make him a cake. We did cards/presents afterwards: nothing hugely significant but my parents had sent him a nice card and a few things and of course, the kids got cards. Mine was just generic and I didn't go overboard or anything but felt I made a nice gesture of making his favorite meal. Don't worry though - I didn't fawn over him or anything like that. I acted very business-like. He said several times how great the meal was... and he loved the watch the kids and I got him. He just seems so sad to me - so depressed acting. I even scratched his back for him for awhile before going to sleep. NOT in a sexual way at all - and not in a "pining" kind of way. I don't know how to explain the difference. He asked me to, so I complied, caring, but more like when I would scratch the kids backs when they were younger and needing to get to sleep. I don't think it was a mistake...
He's mentioned his appointment several times today by email - making sure of when it is. (Not reading anything into that though.)
