i totally agree. i know that's how i've been all of these years. i know that i've conditioned myself into worrying about my wife's reaction.
so how do i break the cycle? how do i stop worrying about her reaction, keeping me in check with my feelings, no longer saying how i feel all because i don't want to argue in front of the kids? i've stopped arguing with her, because of the kids. i have argued about this ssm for years, and it's just recently that i stopped.
there is no longer any discussion about having a ssm. i bought the book years ago, and she refused to even look at it.
i'm telling you, there is no hope: she is a woman who will only understand me when i am gone--and i don't know how much longer i can do this.
