8, it's so weird that your H left you 2 days before mine did, and that they both got the ball rolling in the same week. I guess our Hs are on the same wavelenth :| .
I don't think you're crazy to want to reconcile...but I totally agree with CG that even if your H "changed his mind", it doesn't mean that he has what it takes to do the hard work required to reconcile. And it seems like, after separation, WAHs take 1-2 years before they even start to change their minds, when that happens.
I guess acceptance is the only way forward that I can see for myself. And I envy you that, if the D proceeds and you find acceptance, you'll be able to live a life totally free of your former H. A blank slate could be a good look for your life 8.
(((hugs)))
me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.