You must be the best mama ever because you just have a calming effect - even when you're pissed! Thank goodness I had like 12 pages to read up on tonight - I needed it! As always, thank you for sharing...
So anyway, my dearest friend always says to me, "The film is still rolling. The movie isn't over yet."
I find that advice so helpful. It doesn't mean that Mr. A and I or you and Mr. NM will ride off into the sunset, it just means that this whole thing is still evolving.
You've had a ton to process lately. You don't need to force yourself to draw conclusions now. Just notice and handle everything that's being thrown at you.
Ok, now I'm giving advice to myself. But I'm happy to read that you're enjoying time with S!!!
Um, I guess, good luck with the next little while - whatever rolls on the film. You have a lot of people on these boards who think you rock!!