Thank you Figgeroni! I think I am like a case where you have to get your leg amputated but you still have "ghost" feelings of it being there...meaning I was THIS CLOSE to having my family (I felt) and I never got to even experience it for a day or a couple weeks or a couple of months. So it makes me want it more I guess. But you are right. Family is where the heart is. I am enough by myself. Gone is the intact family though! It is now worthless to dream it! I don't mean that negatively, I am being honest. It ain't happenin so I shouldn't pine for it! I will get there.

Last edited by newmama; 06/30/10 03:50 AM.

me,34
exH,34
S,16 months
S:3/31/09-left for OW
started DBing 10/09
d final: sometime 10/10
current:
http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2022856&page=1
met in 2004