This week the thought that kept occurring to me: at the core, I am a person who was left. I am a person who could be tossed aside. I am a person whom my life-partner could leave within 3 months.
I tried to do "the work" on that. I'm sure that my core essence is NOT the above. But as Gardener says: it's the million dollar question: who.am. I. What do I want?
Aver, I was really glad to see the second paragraph after reading the first. Yes, your core essence is NOT based on the whims or behavior of another person. Good, I'm glad you know that. But I understand, I just posted that I still have my "good & bad" days. Like Sunday, I was just down. Down on myself. I felt rotten. Then a day later, I felt normal again.
I think it's not an overstatement to say this is going to take years to get through. In my case I'm already into year 2!
Not surprising when we remember that we spent years, decades in your case, with one person, who is no longer in our lives. But even so, that person, or rather his choices, don't define us!
Even though sometimes we may feel that they do. I think it's part of the grief, or just the general crappiness of how all this feels sometimes.
Continue working through it. Right. Right!
Kudos on handling lunch with the X inlaws. That's a tough one. But I'm guessing you handled it w your characteristic with and grace. It's nice that they wanted to see you but right, makes for awkward conversation!
Well you said you overbooked your weekend on my thread so I look fwd to reading your updates soon. I hope it was a good one! Wishing you a great week. ((((hugs)))))
It's nice that they wanted to see you but right, makes for awkward conversation!
