Hi Aver! I'm back - I'm so happy! What a rotten feeling when I was locked out of the DB board. I don't know what happened. One day my login didn't work. Given my many computer problems I assumed that was why. Finally I emailed help & got a new pw.
Anyhoo, at least I got in 1 post to you before then. So, my update: Shortly after the dogs mini-crisis, which was then a non-crisis, b/c H emailed that he "impulsively" asked to keep 1 of dogs, & basically never mind, I in my infinite wisdom noticed that H stopped depositing $$ into the joint savings.
He & I used to dep. $100 of ea. pay into it. Looks like the last one he made was in Mar., right around time he finally opened his own checking & split his pay (which I did in Dec).
And, he's withdrawn money from it since then. Not much, but still.
I bounced btwn "should I tell my L, or should I email H?" the way I always agonize over all this. So I emailed L & asked if I should email him or should she. She said go ahead & let her know what he says.
Well, Aver, that was on June 17 that I emailed him this;
"Hi, I was looking at the joint savings acct. & it looks like your deposits stopped in March?"
I had a thought that maybe he forgot to set that up when he set up his new cking acct. pay split. Or maybe I'm just a sap. But somehow it seemed best to assume innonence.
Anyway, I have NOT heard anything back from him. Since June 17! This is a new record, even for email. Let's see I haven't seen him/spoken to him since Nov. 2nd. Now he's not even replying to my email.
It's kind of good, but kind of sad, that this isn't the foremost thing in my mind. Sometimes out of nowhere I get this pain, a sudden realization - I haven't seen him since Nov.! But it happens less and less. It's a dull pain, like an ache. Still, I have good days & bad days. It's weird, there's no rhyme or reason to it.
I had a bunch of PTO days I needed to take by June 30 or lose them. So I've been off since last Thurs. I am happy to report that I have purchased a laptop online, so Happy Day - I will be back online regularly!
The sad thing is I have all these days b/c I resisted taking the time. And why, well b/c I have a hard enough time GALing on the weekends, never mind filling a bunch of weekdays!!
The first few weekdays I actually got so nutsy I had to take a Xanax. I must be the only person in the world who had to take anti anxiety meds while on vacation!!!
But, I'm doing better. I toyed w the idea of going to NYC by myself, but with needing a new computer & debt worry, decided not to. Right now anyway!
It's like I was afraid to have the time off, without stuff to do every minute of the day (as with work). So I just thought, Ok, I'll FORCE myself to do.
And I remembered a great line I read, maybe on here: If you like your own company, you'll never be lonely. I'm trying to!
So this post is long enough, but I know I better give you a GAL report. I'll warn you, it's shamefully boring as compared with your steamy, man-toy GAL!!
Spent time w my little niece & nephew (5 & 7) saw Toy Story 3 (it's great BTW, see it!); researched, shopped for laptop, bought laptop, looked at houses for sale (exteriors only) am figuring out neighborhoods I'd like to live in this area, bought some new clothes, went to the gym, have started exercising (and I'm feeling it too!), spent a few evenings with sisters/friends visiting.
Boring, I warned you! I look at men, I notice men, but I haven't yet gotten to the point of actually going out with one yet. And I mean just like for coffee or a drink. Not a big fix up thing. I don't know Aver, I'm shy to begin with. Plus my self esteem is battered and my confidence is shaky, if at all. I don't know how I break out of it. Baby steps for me, as I try figure out my next steps. I wish you lived closer, maybe you could coach me.
I will stop by your thread to catch up on what's going on in your world. Grateful I can at least use my brother's computer for now, but can't wait til that laptop arrives! (It's a PC, although I'm writing to you now on a Mac-my bro's). I hope everything's going great, lots of hugs to you (((()))))
(It's a PC, although I'm writing to you now on a Mac-my bro's). I hope everything's going great, lots of hugs to you (((()))))
