How much longer in Separated?

[jon2911]

Continued progress over the last month and a half, we've been able to meet somewhere every other weekend consistently, talking every night. I'm frustrated sometimes when friends want an update, with major news or something. However, a good friend recently took me to lunch and asked "well, when you do spend time together, is there any awkwardness, like a wall between you, or is it natural?"

I realized that I'd definitely say natural, just like we're dating again. He said that's huge news, and exactly what he's been praying for specifically. How cool. Great to have some outside perspective.

We talked until 10:30 last night, and then went to bed. Here's the text I found this morning at 1:30 AM

"Grandma had a stroke. At the ER now. God this looks bad."

Wow. I had mixed emotions driving to work, on the one had wishing I could be with her, frustrated because I couldn't get ahold of her. Just after pulling into work:

SIL is coming in tonight at 10:00, after that they'll take her off of life support. Please say a prayer for her when you get a change, I love you

I responded "I love you too. I'll be here whenever you can call"

I finally got her on the phone at 11:30 AM, and she told me more details. I told her I wanted to come in, and she said that's unnecessary and she'll be busy with either funeral plans or the funeral itself. I knew that, but was hoping she'd want me to come.

So, interesting circumstances for the first L-Bombs in a year and a half. I want to be there for her however she needs me to. We had plans for the 4th, but my family wants me to come there also so I have a backup. Feeling very torn today, I was very close to her grandparents and really hoped to see them before something like this happened. But it's not about my feelings right now and I need to remember that.

Hoping to catch up on everyone's threads now!