I will say my STBXW said sorry twice after our final mediation session. I guess it helped. I didn't answer her though. The first time she said it I took a step towards her then stopped myself. She said it again and I just turned and headed towards the car.

I was about to say "it's OK" almost as a reflex because that's how we are with each other. But it's not OK. I've started reading "Forgiving Is a Choice," but it's slow because ... I guess I'm not ready to forgive even though I know I'm just hurting myself. I'm still wrapped up in wanting to "win."

Me: 47, Ds 17-13, D final 6-11
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