Just found out she already filed

[ClingingToHope]

I'm likely to be like BND.

I spent much of Christmas with STBXW and her family and it was great -- until I realized the invite was basically a way for her to get out of having to drive them to my apartment because she had plans with either her best friend or an OM. That really, really, really hurt and I'm not going to let her do that again.

In mediation she brought up Christmas and how she'd like some holidays to be family holidays.

I just looked at the mediator and said "I don't know. I don't know how I'll feel in six months. Part of me feels like she wants to be a family when it's convenient for her."

My goal now is to separate as much as possible. Christmas this year is my morning so she'll have to drop them off on Christmas Eve then my goal on Christmas night is to drop them off and go do something.

Maybe some day I'll feel different. But seeing her as little as possible has done a world of good for me.