I emailed on Friday, she replies by Weds, not terrible but not brilliant.
The email was nothing but fluff... very little substance, one quick question about my weekend. She mentioned that she and her friend spent a lot of time drinking copious amounts of champagne on the weekend... She barely drank while with me. She said that she didn't like the person she became when she got too drunk.
She's still online, just idle.
... so no assumptions. The weekend was as she said it was. Good, nothing much happened. She dog sat and saw a friend.
So now what?
I take a day or two, reply something fluffy and wait. I know it's a form of progress, I know we're at least talking... and I should be happy with any kind of positive communication... but I'm not. I hate emails like this when I'm hurting so much from it all.
Wish I knew what else to do.. no, that's not true. I wish I could wave a magic wand and make her wake up to herself, but given that I'm all out of magic these days I have to settle for the slow and unpredictable route and it'll have to be good enough for me.
It's been a good week so far to be honest. My contemporary class was very intense, but I'm making less and less mistakes. The instructor is thrilled with me and spending loads of time on my turn out and flexibility, which are both really coming along.
There's two girls at contemporary who have started talking to me now as well. Both are really friendly (and a little flirty), but it's nice to finally be meeting people at these things.
Ballroom was intense. The new shoes did a lot of good, were incredibly light weight, and hurt like hell come the end of the night! It looks like I am moving towards some kind of a permanent partnership with this slender 24yr old french girl. She's absolutely lovely, and a much better ballroom dancer than I am, which is great.
At the end of the night ANOTHER girl who I've been chatting to over the weeks, came up and invited me out for a "Strictly platonic cup of coffee". I've agreed because she stressed that she's not hitting on me, and more friends is exactly what I need right now. An older lady also came and invited me to come with her and her husband and a bunch of others to a social dance night on Friday... again, I agreed because it seems like a great chance to practice my skills AND make friends. More of what I need.
Work has been stupidly busy, but good. My co-workers are feeling the stress more than I am, but I seem to be helping them and the way they think about managing the stress, so that makes me feel all kinds of good.
...and finally, yesterday, I got my license! Finally a P plater. Just waiting for my mechanic friend to find me a car and I'll be 100% on the road! Very pleased with myself.
....and that is a list of all of the things that I want to tell my wife... but won't. Instead I'll probably reply with less than an 8th of that, and avoid most of the important bits in favour of levity.
*sigh*
Oh well, at least good things are happening.
If I have enough energy I'll throw up that list of goals later tonight... after Hip Hop.
Me: 29 H: 25 T:7yrs M:5yrs
Bomb: 23/04/10
Had no idea anything was wrong. Cheated so she could end it without talking.
