i have been giving her all types of massages (foot/back/leg), and i do it knowing that it will not lead to sex, and that it does not lead into a love bank unfortunately. it's all of these touches, all of this touching that never leads to sex, and i need and want to be touched.
i am doing my best to withdraw, and i have been training myself to withdraw physically and emotionally while trying not to let on to the kids.
i also have become afraid to approach the situation anymore; that's the really sad, emasculating part of it all.
