After all the activity in the last couple of weeks, with my oldest son graduating from high school, having a graduation party here last weekend, etc., I now have time to get back to my marriage & my next step.
Since finding out my H has been living with OW, I have had no contact in person. We exchanged a couple of e-mails, one of him expressing his displeasure @ not attending S's grad w/us. There was one today, wanting S7 overnight Weds. since he won't have him this year for the 4th.
I believe he wants to "normalize" our situation so it's more comfortable for him, & get it back to me being available & friendly again.
My youngest son came home from the weekend, telling me, "Daddy says he's never moving back, because you got in word fights. I don't think he's coming back, because he likes OW more than you, not to hurt your feelings."
I don't know why they have those conversations, so I tell him something along the lines; that adults sometimes make choices we may not understand. We are responsible for making the best choices we can & making ourselves happy.
So, by appearances, H is happy with his choice (that 1% ?). I guess I still have difficulty in being the one that takes the final step...The one who gets to finish what I didn't start. Once I take the next step, it is going to start getting more difficult financially for me, another reason I haven't pushed thru.
