You are not a lost cause. Keep doing what you are doing and making yourself a better person for you and your kids even the R you have or will have no matter what it will be with your W.
It will take time to change what has happened in the past. At least now and in the future you will find peace with yourself. That is what you need to focus on is yourself and being a better you.
Keep yourself focused on the place in your heart where you will be happy again. It is not too late to find yourself the person you want to be.
Stay focused and do the hard work to get there!!!
ME-41 W-33 M-8 D-8 S-4 D 5/17/2010 www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1961097#Post1961097