WAW EA told her to leave

[AJM]

Danger, a few things stand out:
1) you are trying to think of things from her side. Is that a 180 for you? Or is that a control thing? I think it is important you know for yourself
2) Yep, stay away from the phone records. You will become a wobbly wheel of emotions. I can tell you that. Don't look for signs- they will find you.
3) I suspect she asked about who knew because if you had told everyone, it would have made it hard for her to come back. Really really hard. The fewer that know the better. She can have a comfort knowing that she doesn't have to face all of that.
4) the trip? The IC. You really cannot and should not know what is being done there. You love her right? If so, you should want the best for her even if that means you are not it. For whatever reason. The IC should be able to help her through her feelings and it is likely that those feelings will take time to figure out. They say that it takes at least 5 sessions before a person trusts the IC enough to really get started. She has plenty more. Speaking of signs - if she stops going you may want to worry a little

I think you're doing great. You really do seem to be well balanced, but have a tendency to analyze. Know what? You have every right to be suspicious etc considering what happened, but you must find a way past that quickly else you will be causing yourself issues. You seem to know that and you are working hard on getting that out of the way. At some point you'll have to talk about it though, right?

I think she wants to rebuild your trust but also has a lot of conflicting feelings. That will take a lot of time to work through. I had one friend who did similar. It took her two years. It takes a long time. Be patient.

Keep focusing on you. It works. It is the right thing to do for you. And for your family.

AJ