Well, Whatis just had a mini-meltdown at work. I guess a few tears don't make a melt down but...I've been feeling really washed out today, lightheaded, tired and struggling through. I went to my office at lunch for a 15 min. snooze and thoughts kept going through my mind "I want to go home, to my house, to my wife, to my family!" I just feel so beat up today and alone with it. At break my co-worker and I went out for a brief walk around the block and I told him what I was feeling and I started crying. He put his arm around me and said "You're bound to have these times Whatis, you were the husband and family man, that's who you were and that was taken from you. Sure, you still have the girls every second week but it's just not the same" On the way back to work I thanked him for the ear (he's been a friend for 10 years) and said if I'd like to go for coffee after work to let him know. I think this is just one of those days, I get tired of fighting sometimes. I don't know whether the liver detox and the St. John's Wort is playing with my head, who knows. But, I'm just getting through today. I'm supposed to go to a buffet tonight with my church small group but I think I'm gonna pass. I'm just not up to it. I've got the girls tonight so maybe I'll go home, have my cry and then pick them up. This too shall pass.
