H is quiet between visits at the moment, although when he leaves his man cave he does seem to poke his nose further out each time.
Being detached is so hard and I work on it constantly. My impending holiday has made me more vulnerable to H emotions as it is our first holiday without him. All yesterday I struggled to keep control. Today is much better and back to moving along without any major thoughts of H impacting on me. I know the children are feeling it as well.
I know I have to stay strong for me and the kids. We ARE going to enjoy this holiday as a family. It will also be 1 year since H first left on 6th July which is also my 50 birthday so we will cross that milestone whilst we are away. Will have a busy day planned so as not to dwell on the past but look to the future.
