H moved in w/ OW. Wants month to fig things out.

[seanna]

I haven't been here for a while because I was ashamed to say that I caved and took him back.

It went like this.....I was fine, getting over it all, and the very day I get a phone call "Please take me back, I got it all out of my system, I'll worship you till the day I die. I promise it's forever" You get the story.

Something in his voice was different this time I thought. He really sounded sincere, so I said this..."you better make sure that I'm what you want, if you're not, please go. If you have any contact with here ever again, a phone call, you forgot somethig over there, if we even see her on the street and you wave. It's over FOREVER. (I meant every word too)

So, he came home, moved his stuff back, seemed relieved to get that out of his system. We celebrated fathers day together, We went camping with the kids last wed to thursday. Saturday was our 15 year anniversary, then BOOM! He says, I miss her.

Crap!! I said seriously? I thought it was out of your system now. you wanted me, you were sure, you promised, begged pleaded, what's up??

He says that he knows it'll go away and not to worry. It's still us forever blah, blah, blah.

Sunday comes along. He's depressed. We have the talk. He says he really came back to do the right thing, but his heart isn't here. WTF?? You should've heard how he laid it on thick this time... like never before!!

Then today. I had a bad feeling so I woke up, filled out the divorce paperwork, called an attorney. Got my ducks in a row so to speak cause I could feel it coming you know??

Then he makes up this excuse to go to the store to get something. I had a bad feeling so I followed him. I caught him on the payphone calling her!! He says that he didn't talk to her, but like that mattered anymore........

I told him, I promised you that last last chance, I said it was forever over if you betrayed me again. Even though you didn't talk to her (so you say) that's enough for me. I'm done forever. I mean it (I really do) and tomorrow I'm filing and I'm reeeeeeeaaally over it. I can't be in the triangle one more second. I won't. So that's why I haven't posted

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