Still Moving Forward

[BeingMe]

Thanks everyone. Yes, I kicked butt ... there is no sign of the tumour, and doc has put me on yearly MRI's instead of the 6 monthly ones. Yessssss! Apparently, the dye they inject into your veins is quite heavy on one's kidneys, so they don't like to do them too often. But, they will keep an eye on the kidneys too. Miracles do happen, and I feel this is one.

Yeah, I also thought my H is finding it hard to support me in the way I need, and that he is probably relieved to "just be friends". We chatted on the way home (it's a 2 hour drive to the city where the doctor is) about his issues, and how we will go about the getting the S. It's going to be in stages because we have to get our house sold in order for me to buy a smaller place, and he doesn't need a place now since he can travel from job to job. I don't mind. As I said to him, I have no emotional feelings for him, so am very comfortable with him in the house. I like him as a person, and find I can be friends with him. I told him if he ever meets anyone sometime, then he can just get the D going, and I'll be happy to comply. We will tell the children when the house goes up for sale, or thereabouts.

He is worried and depressed about his parents deteriorating health, and ages, and being so far away from them. He was worried about us too, so now he has two things less to worry about ... my health and our R. I can't do anything about his other issues. And, I think there are things he is not disclosing, but quite honestly, once we have a SA in place, I really won't care, except as a friend and a concerned co-parent.

So, I think I will encourage him to get an official SA settled, then we can live as friends and parents then move on once the house is sold. It's actually quite a relief for me too. Just to be done.

Again, thanks for all the good thoughts, prayers, etc.