I am so sorry that you are going thru this - I really am. The fear will subside over time. Several have commented about how you look at things. This is so true. Control and Fear are some pretty nasty demons to face. They really are. You must and can face them though.
Your H fell in love with you and married you. Your H felt that he had someone special. Your H though...did not create you. He did not make you the special person that he fell in love with. No..he did not. DO you know who did? YOU DID!
You can do it again! First though you must go thru this...you must allow it to change you...you must learn from it. You must stand up and accept that YOU WILL NOT BE DEFINED by someone else.
You hurt, your scared, your frustrated, your tired...REST and HEAL. Feel this pain and then take the biggest step you will ever take. AND THAT IS FORWARD FOR YOU!
Whatever happens in your M remember this....YOU MATTER! Ya really do.
In this darkness...you will find your meaning. You will realize WHY....you will realize so many things. The biggest being....that you are totally special.
God Bless you Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
