Many of us on these boards have been where you are. I can HONESTLY tell you that the people on these boards SAVED my life.
In the darkness that you may see right now...will come the strength that YOU really have. Your tired dude...your frustrated...the pain can be overbearing.. It can..and I understand. It is okay to cry. Actually the best thing you can do.. You need to surround yourself with people who care. People who love you and believe in you. I don't know you Par...I don't...but I care man. I care cause I been there.
Now...please take one step forward...take a step for you. Do you know what that step is? It is a step that says...that screams - I will make it today! I will. I may hurt but I will pick myself and live for today. Just today.
The shiznit...that comes out of your wife's mouth is probably her pain. It is this pain that God must heal...He must also heal yours, which will take a little time. God is never late my friend. He is always on time but that time is his time.
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I just can't lose this person
I hate to say dude...that offing yourself is not going to help get her back. Do you know what may work? Time...strength. The strength that everyone on these boards knows is in you.
Look man you made mistakes..F - we all do. You can always fix a mistake...there is always hope...ALWAYS.
You've have asked for advise....here is my advise to you.
Stop the suicide thoughts..STOP them. Straight up dude. Just stop man.
Next - take the meds the doc gives you. I had to take pills for a few weeks to "keep the edge off" so to speak
Next - sit down and realize that God loves you...close your eyes and feel it..and I mean feel it.
Next - sit down and take the energy that right now feels like pain and write down what you are going to do tomorrow.
Finally, you are not destroyed...you are hurt and broken..BIG F'in difference. BIG. Know why? Cause broken can be fixed..Cause Hurt can heal. Healing is what you need to win this woman back...fixing the issues that you have is where you need to focus your energies on. Don't worry about the 600 miles..Just focus on your healing... keep posting - get it out..
I know that you can do this..I know that you can make it..I know that you have it in you and dude...I BELIEVE IN YOU!
God Bless, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
