Still trying to find my way

[Mystik]

TimeHeals, the problem is that I don't even know how to get back up. Yeah, people say to get up, get a life, do things with DS. Well, those things are easier said than done. I do things with DS, but there's not much to do that DS would be interested in doing in our area. I do have a couple activities planned, but when I only have two weekends a month with him it's hard to schedule those activities.

As for getting a life, I never had one before this all happened. H was my life from the time I was 20. I'm 32 now, so that's a long time. I never was one for going out, having drinks, meeting friends at a bar. I can count on one hand the number of times I've gone out and enjoyed it. I am just not a going-out kind of person. So when I say that I don't know how to get up and get a life, I really mean I don't know how.