Re-Connecting

[Fightingforher]

It's an amazing feeling "calmness" I finally feel that and I think I know why. I've been beating myself up for months because of the way I treated my W. The taking for granted, pure laziness when it came to running the daily engine, lacking the fatherly instinct when it came to my son.

All of this has opened my eyes and caused a great deal of self help. I'm feeling like a new man everyday. I still have opportunities for improvement but I'm confident that with work I'll be able to overcome those too.

I've made such strides with my son which in itself was all worth it.

My W on the other hand hasn't done anything to help herself. She continues to betray me and our family by having R with OM. I know that when she is on her own the R with OM may or may not continue, but her problems will always follow her without the help.

I can't thank everyone enough for giving me the courage to work on myself and pushing me to GAL. You lose touch with yourself and that is a painful feeling.

I am going to tell my W that I'm proceeding with the D tonight and it's a good idea that she starts planning on finding a new place. I will be ok and I will be the best father I can be.

Thank you all for this!!!!!!!