The journey begins

[ClingingToHope]

I got the girls up -- it was a struggle -- and off to camp for the week. D7 is going to an outdoors camp and really didn't want to go. Luckily, one of the camp counselors is an aide from her school so she perked up.

D11 went with me to my softball game and then I took her up to a friend's house where she'll be going for the week.

It's going to be a long week for them. They'll go from camp or the friend's house to vacation bible camp.

I won't see them again until Wednesday when I pick them up and NOT take them to bible camp. We'll do something different.

Then I won't see them again until Tuesday, July 6.

At that point though, I'll have them two of the next three weeks and two of those weekends. That'll be the BIG SUMMER stuff for me.

I was really down dropping them off though. You know, nothing really has changed in my life since last Friday but it feels like the roller coaster is screaming downhill again.

Bad, bad mental images. I called my sister and talked things through for a bit. Then I texted the 31-year-old just because it lifts my mood. Turns out she's going rafting Friday -- man, I really think we'd be compatible. She loves to DO STUFF. Snow boarding, boating. STBXW likes to SIT.

But she'll be back Sunday for the 4th and is planning on meeting the church group so I'll see her.

That lifted my mood a bit. Now, I have to email my attorney and get things going again.

Money? It's going to be close in terms of making it to the end of summer without dipping into savings.

I'm just in a lull in a lot of ways.