this isn't an exact sequence, but I notice that for ME, numb followed depression, too! ANd then hope picked me up again.
You said that maybe being numb helped you to shut down so you could recover. That actually makes sense...
And Mystik, I have full confidence that you will pick yourself up very soon. Luckily, it sounds like you haven't had as many suicidal thoughts, right? And many of us who have gone through this have had them! I was talking to a friend of mine with 2 kids who is now reconciling with her wayward husband. She said she had flashes of suicidal thinking when she went through this. I was relieved that someone "normal" like her felt that way! But neither me or her have gone to the step of planning or whatever comes next.
OK don't mean to be dismal! And you know what, if you feel up to seeing your SIL and family this weekend, try it! They will get to see your son, right?
Last edited by newmama; 06/28/1005:15 PM.
me,34 exH,34 S,16 months S:3/31/09-left for OW started DBing 10/09 d final: sometime 10/10 current: http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2022856&page=1 met in 2004
