To be honest, I'm feeling pretty good. It was like I took a week to just mourn and feel awful and drink too much and cry, and now I'm back to normal.
I'm still angry, though, but I know it will fade with time.
I came here originally to save my marriage (obviously) but I just really don't think it can be saved anymore. The truth is I just don't think I can ever be with my wife again after this.
Maybe, with therapy and a lot of time for forgivness and a lot of hard work we coulda made it happen, but the fact is that she wants nothing to do with that, so I have accepted it and am moving on.
I feel strangely at peace with everything right now.
And it doesnt hurt that I met an absolutely awesome girl at a rock show saturday night.
I'm not looking to jump into a R or anything, but it was pretty nice to realize that there ARE tons of really great girls out there, and there is no reason for me to waste my time pursuing someone who does not want me, treats me like crap, and only hurts me.
I just deserve better. I'm not gonna subject myself to her anymore, cause all she does is destroy my confidence and self respect.
Let the OM deal with her issues... I've checked out.
