No going back....

[MHL]

And I dont know if my 'as iffing' is all in vein. He's always said he hopes we can still be friends, and I feel like he feels thats just what he's getting. Not that I want to be mean to him. Am I making ANY sense at all.

Don't believe anything they say.....
(I know you are hearing that it is over)

I'm confused about it now becasue H seems happier now (3 months seperated), than hes been in 2 years I wish it was an act, but its a good one if it is.

and believe half of what you see.

Know this, he may be seem happy on the outside but he is not.

If he was happy before he started acting like an alien he would not have started acting like an alien....right??? make sense???

So we know he was unhappy to begin with....right???

MLC, WAS, Alien, whatever you want to call them they are all doing the same thing and that is medicating the pain they are in.

Your H is truly unhappy, he is literally on drugs when you see him, he is medicated. Slowly, VERY SLOWLY the effectiveness of the drugs wears off and he is still unhappy. This is where you have to be PATIENT.

If you want to stop being confused, stop trying to get into his head, all you are going to find is more confusion.

Grit said it best.....The focus on YOU is our focus.

Make a list of things you want to change about YOU, or things YOU want to do for YOU, what kind of person do YOU want to become, are YOU starting to catch on here? This is about YOU.

We know there is pain and the journey is hard that is why we are here, to help YOU. YOU will find acceptance and understanding here as YOU walk this path.

YOU are not alone.

Hope you will stay also.