I don't post on the weekends because I need a break. I am busy with the kids and yard work, etc. I do catch up first thing Mon. mornings.
I'm glad you're enjoying your time with the kids. Just remember, as hard as it is in your sitch, they can see through your W's "buying" of their love and affection. I will bet they have as much fun with you doing "simple", fun things and wonder why you don't get to go to the zoo with them and why you are excluded from other family events. They are young but they know what's going on.
Keep expecting the ups and downs and know that the down times don't get you down nearly as much as they used to, nor do they last as long. You can't shut off your feelings and love for your W like a light switch no matter if she deserves your love or not. If you look at it as doing what is right by your kids and your love for you entire family, doing what you have to do to protect yourself and them is done out of love, not hate or spite. If you didn't care, you would just walk away and never look back. Kind of like what she is doing. You are better than that.
Continued luck on your job search, I know that would make a big difference in your PMA.
BTW, peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and regular lays potato chips is one of my favorites!(not day in and day out, I get it)I remember ramen noodles from my college days. They are cheap and delicious! Not too good for you, of course, but great nonetheless. Fix them like spaghetti, drain them, add Velveeta cheese and hot sauce. Fantastic!
Hang in there, LSG. You will make it through this and come out on the other side a better, stronger person.
