I am glad to know you are still with us! I worried about you this weekend, as I know many others on this board did. I don't like that you "did something stupid," but I'm glad that 1.) You realize it was stupid (therefore a bad decision) and 2.) it did NOT work. Keep taking things one day at a time, or one hour at a time when you have to. You are right; you ARE just like all of us...hurt and confused and unsure of what to do to get your life back in control. That's one of the great things about this board; we can come here for support and friendship and virtual hugs from those who know how we feel from personal experience. Take care of YOU right now!!!