The weird thing is that, up until this weekend, was feeling like my W was making a real effort in that regard (had even initiated ML, but in the spirit of “getting it over with”, given it was hanging over both of our heads, which I appreciated).
In fact, when I texted her after the morning we ML to say how much I enjoyed it, she said she wanted me to “be happy” so thought she was ready to at least “fake it until we make it” (but we had agreed when I had tried to initiate about a week later for this trip last weekend to be the “next time”, which she feigned not remembering).
She had always professed to have no interest in ML period after having the kids, so the hardest thing for me now is knowing that those feelings/desire did come back during the A for someone else (but have not come back in regard to me).
It’s funny how all of this works – right when you feel like you’re a little “over the hump”, you’re back on your a**, questioning everything…
