mish, I know how you feel cause I feel the same way. Right now, the one person sabotaging our effort is me and me alone. And of course it is again the choice between being right and entitled to the feelings of mistrust, anger, hurt etc and being happy by opening up a bit and letting the baggage in the past where they belong.
I have come to the conclusion that I cant force myself take huge steps forward but that I can stop allowing the past affecting my present so much.
It is possible that we get hurt again. And now we both know we can survive whatever comes our way. But we are also strong enough and capable to influence the situation because we are not naive anymore.
Only time will help trust come back. I've realised that. Only distance from the hurtful memories will make them weak and unable to ruin our present. Be patient. Turn on the charm, the best of Mischka that is, be the best partner you want to be and let things evolve... "What a ride!!!!" Hugs K
