Thanks so much girls. I think with a lot of things it is about losing the fear - conversing with h (we are divorced any day soon) and also going travelling. I kind of had nothing to lose by going as I had already lost my husband/ home etc and I was done with my job. My New Years resolution was to take new opportunities when they present themselves and it has really paid off so far.
I have to say I have struggled the past few days with missing home which of course leads me to miss h. I guess my old life with h was so stable and comfortable, now it is the opposite. I know it is exciting being away and I wouldn't swap it but sometimes it would be nice to curl up at home with a special someone. The grass is always greener right? when I was with h I always used to wish I was away travelling. I have to say I miss male company too sometimes. It is quite tiring being responsible for yourself all the time, it is nice to lean on another person. But in reality I think I would have to re-learn being part of a couple now, I am too used to my own company and having space. I've been out with a few guys since h but none of them were 'right' or close to being right. I have to try and not get impatient!
when I was with h I always used to wish I was away travelling. I have to say I miss male company too sometimes. It is quite tiring being responsible for yourself all the time, it is nice to lean on another person. But in reality I think I would have to re-learn being part of a couple now, I am too used to my own company and having space. I've been out with a few guys since h but none of them were 'right' or close to being right. I have to try and not get impatient! 
