Hey Pam, I understand ... the pain can feel beyond unbearable. And I understand the strong temptation to check on H and wonder about what he's doing, but you have to resist that. The best thing you can do right now is to take care of yourself and your kids -- you can't control H's thoughts, feelings or actions.
Some days -- heck, even hours -- will be better than others. It really is, as lots of people here have described it, a roller-coaster ride.
