Newmama, my prayers were/are pretty much the same... always looking for a sign, a sense of detachment, or signal from WH, or unprofound courage that keeps me from my WH. I looked for so many signs, my head is still spinning! Every thing I feel and signs i see and all point towards, dont worry WH is coming around... except... (and this should make you laugh) I prayed a Novena to St. Jude (saint of hopeless cases, the impossible...) and on the 8th day you get your answer, and well in March, I recieved my D papers on the 8th day! Maybe I shouldve taken the hint then and stopped praying! lol. not funny, but it kind of is...
nowadays, I pray for stregnth to forget him. Ask God to make me strong so that i realize that i dont need him. to make me strong and know i can do this alone, and get through the pregnancy alone. Believe me, I've had my arguments with the big guy upstairs too... like why me... how could you? what about this baby? it got ugly!
