Man, I'm sorry that you're being hurt right now by the things you are seeing and realizing. Some days are better than others, and when you have a really bad one, just realize that it will pass. You'll feel better again than you do now. Some people are able to justify the things they want to do, regardless of how wrong they are. We have no control over that. We can only control 'us', and our reactions to the things we experience. I know it hurts, it can't be avoided...it has to be 'gone through'. She's not laughing at you. If you already had someone else, would you be laughing at her, if she didn't? It's the same with her. She's just moving on. And that's what we've got to do. I'm sorry for your pain, and I wish you peace and healing. It's hard to let go...but we've got to do it.
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.
