After about 4-5 days of a seemingly kinder and gentler W, this weekend has marked the return of the distant, nasty and cold W. I don't know what I did to bring this person back.
She clearly has a short fuse with me. Everything suggest doing with the kids she receives as if I am asking to take them to the North Pole, and she barely talks to me. Last night after the kids went down I went into my room and just went to sleep, skipping dinner with her and any contact. I was laying in bed wondering what I should be doing, if anything? Lay down and take it? Wait for it to pass? Disappear? It's times like this when I feel like I am the one who would rather be S. I can't live like this -- being her punching bag. It bothers me that she shows such impatience with me in front of the C. And it's not like I am doing anything so terrible. We went to an amusement park yesterday and rode a ferris wheel and carousel with the kids and the W just couldn't relax. She would for brief moments, and then just when I'd think she's loosening up, boom.
There was one moment where she said, "I hear the Backstreet Boys." I didn't hear her well, and said, "Backstreet Boys?" She said, "Yes." I said, "Where? The Backstreet Boys are here?" She then snipped, "No! I HEAR the Backstreet Boys! What would the Backstreet Boys be doing HERE at a place like this??!!" It was so nasty. So I just happily replied, "Why not? It's not like they have anything better to do? What arena are they selling out these days?"
Even when she gets huffy I calmly defend myself and not allow myself to get angry in return. But it is strange that just when she was showing some positive signs, she has spend the last 2 1/2 days seeming as distant and detached as ever -- and I just don't get it.
