EC: Sounds like a rough night! Just remember - the rollercoaster goes up and down...down can't last forever! Stay strong and know that nothing is ever over until it's over. I might have shared this but I think it was on another thread: My first H had an affair and after we divorced and he was living with her, then he wanted to reconcile with me. We went out a few times (I guess I was then the OW, lol) and he begged me...he'd do anything.... but at that point, I couldn't do it. I was the one that said no and walked away. He wanted to move back in with me right away and agreed to full transparency and counseling and everything - but I was done. Of course, we had no kids so that made it easier for me to make that decision.