Hindsight IS 20/20. If FORESIGHT was as good as hindsight, I wouldn't be in this mess, lol!
I have good days and bad days, just like everyone. Having so many good days followed by a couple of bad days really threw me. I swear I've done 10 EC7's in the last 3 days alone!
But I had a bit of a revelation/vision this morning of what our relationship *could* be like with just a little more effort, so I'll continue on that path and see if comes to fruition.
Like you, I wrestle with Freddy. The top four drugs in my "Freddy Pharmacy" - anger, contempt, resentment, and self-righteousness - are all aggressive, and Larry told me he was shocked that with THAT MUCH negative energy injecting itself, it's a wonder I didn't wield anything mighter than my keyboard. Like a loaded gun or a large SUV, for example.
I, too, needed time to absorb what was happening. I missed SO many opportunities along the way, but I can't go back and change them now. All I can do is stop what didn't work and try things that HAVE worked for others...
