Wow punkin - I've had the very same issues. I have always placed H in the highest regard. Felt so lucky that someone like him would choose someone like me. Went to great lengths not to embarrass him or burden him. Thinking that he had this awesome discipline and high standard. Thought that he was someone who saw life not from a material side - but from more of a quality side. When the second bomb dropped, I was in the midst of losing weight. Funny, I had gotten to a point where I started doing it for me and no one else. Then as the weight came off - I started dressing a little better but not showy - it's not me. I think he was disappointed. Glad for me as a friend - disappointed because he wanted a "tier 1" beauty queen (that's what he thought he deserved) and I remained a "tier 2" ordinary lady. Wonder if MLC reveals lifelong thoughts or are these new ones that begin to develop in the MLC cycle?
M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years Ds-24,22/S-18 D - 3/11 A Day at a Time
