Moving on with my life #2

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Has it really been this long since I posted? Wow..I have lurked and checked a few friends posts but haven't updated mine.

Life is going well here. Been so busy. Seems like summer is busier than when school is in. Have had alot of swim parties with the older kids and even baby's little friends and mommies. Been really fun.

Exh and I are doing well. He is still sober and attending meetings nearly every day. We have gone to a few counseling sessions together and he still goes weekly by himself. That has really helped both of us. Him with boundaries and understanding my feelings and me with not flipping out when I trigger about certain things. We communicate much better. He spends alot of time here but still has to go home alot to his grandparents. Its a good thing they need him or we would fall into certain things easier. He does stay about half the week though. I love my alone time...never thought I would say that. He comes for dinner on certain nights and then leaves about 7 or so. Then I have time to myself with baby and other kids.

I have also lost about 20 pounds!! So excited. I am now down to pre pregnancy weight! I started this program and its been wonderful. I got back to the gym and am so motivated. Still have about 10 to be where I want, but am working on it. Exh notices and says nice compliments. Another thing so unlike him.

I have so much to work on myself. I find myself so insecure and then lashing out at him. Just expecting him to screw up (rightfully so I guess). IC gave me tools to help with calming me down. Exh and I have had a few challenges with OW's that won't go away and he has handled them beautifully for once. He came to me, showed me the text/emails and then I sat there while he responded.

I don't hold my breath yet. He can still revert back at any moment, but I am really praying he doesn't. He is gone for the weekend camping/hunting with a sober buddy and will be back today. I even had a busy and great weekend while he was gone where usually I would be a mess.

Anyway, thats all for now....