Hand is... well, it's getting there. I'm changing the dressings and keeping it clean and following the doctors orders and all that.
I know you can get to the site easily, but do the individual posts show up in google searches? I'll have to try that and double check. I do feel the paranoia too though... worrying that anyone here could be my W... But then I don't think she's even searched for a place like this. It was always more my thing to be on the internet researching stuff.
I already had a working holiday visa, followed by two 'limited leave to remains' (You're only supposed to have one!... damn home office). The next thing was an 'Indefinite leave to remain'... but that's off the cards now. I don't know how to get back in and work... I've not looked into it to be honest.
I'm trying to focus on me, but I can't forget about her... and there are no other reasons for me to go back there.
I hope that time is my friend and not my enemy. I worry that time will let her move past us, move on, meet someone, and I'll become a distant, negative memory. She always told me how much I meant to her... it's hard to imagine becoming that.
Were you and H moving back down these parts? I did most of the moving stuff too, but there were a few things I couldn't take care of in time that were left to her... it was almost all lined up when she dropped the bomb.
Me: 29 H: 25 T:7yrs M:5yrs
Bomb: 23/04/10
Had no idea anything was wrong. Cheated so she could end it without talking.
