2 years later it's still not getting easier

[whitneypinch]

Well, sounds like you had some fun times. Good for you.

I had been thinking about getting together with my ex this Wednesday.
Told her I was only interested in getting together if it meant something to her. (I know, give me the 2x4). She said that she just wanted us to be friends and nothing more than that. I told her that I was not interested in getting together then.

So, yes I am going to go completely the other way and no longer be nice.

This weekend I am flying the kids and I to Boston for 4th of July celebrations. We live in Canada but my kids are getting their U.S citizenship on July 14th. I wanted them to truly experience all the patriotism of 4th of July.

You know, as I planned out all the trip, all I could think about was the tremendous "family" experience we are about to have. An experience that will only come once in our lives.
I thought about my ex and that she should be there. If she has no interest in working on our family then how could I even love this person let alone want to be friends with her. Given the rare chance to work on our family she does nothing.

Why would I even want someone like that?

We have 2 of the most precious kids on earth. I want to spend every minute with them. I want to experience every possible great thing life has to offer with them. If my ex does not feel the same way then screw her.

Yes, I messed some stuff up BUT I did not end a marriage and destroy our family.

So, maybe a bit of anger is what is required here so that I can move on.