Completely Blindsided

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I don't know what would happen if I went back there... a lot of me thinks that she would never be able to move past her own guilt for what she's done.

I don't have a visa there any more, my spousal visa expired. I could only get a new one through her. I have friends there, but I couldn't work.

If moving back there would bring her back to me, I'd pack my bags now...

And I know her, if confronted with a big gesture like this she would most likely run. It's how she deals with her problems. She would run or just stonewall me. Stick to her convictions.

I understand the reasoning though... I wish she'd said that it was too much, or that she didn't want to... or anything like that. I'd settled. I'd moved there and lived there for 6 years. We'd struggled through so much together, staying there would have been nothing by comparison.

You raise a good point though... I just don't know if I can go back there just to be slapped down again. She said flat outright that the problem is me, and that she doesn't know what she wants anymore but she knows it's not me.... how do I overcome that?