No worries, wasn't sure if it was a glitch or not.
I'm not feeling all that great TBH... just a low evening. After being busy but alone yesterday, being quiet and alone today has just compacted. I just miss sharing everything with my best friend, and I miss her sharing her thoughts with me.
I'm from Australia originally. We weighed up where we wanted to live early in the relationship and decided we'd live in the UK for 5yrs then back to Aus to settle... with the option to move somewhere else after a few years.
My visa was expiring over there, and my renewal was more expensive than her complete visa over here... plus we'd been there 5 years (nearly 6) so decided together to move.
And yeah, it's feeling like the worst decision we ever made right now. I think back to it and it throws me for a loop again that we were in that happy place making decisions together, but we're here now, separated, on different sides of the planet.
There's nothing keeping her in the UK as a pressing issue... just fear of the unknown I guess.
I'd go over there to see her, but she's told me not to, and if that didn't look like the most extreme form of pursuing I don't know what would.
I just miss her, is what today comes down to. I really miss her. There's a new life waiting for me, and all these opportunities... but without her it all feels kinda hollow. You know?
Me: 29 H: 25 T:7yrs M:5yrs
Bomb: 23/04/10
Had no idea anything was wrong. Cheated so she could end it without talking.
