Need a Plan for My Marriage

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Journaling 6/26/2010 (continued):

I have no money, so I could not afford gas for the car to take S to the Skate park. W said I will do it. I was disappointed. There is no gas or food enough for the kids for me to feed them. She makes to where she has to cook even if it is late.

W took remote to apartments garage, and I could not even take the care if I needed to.

W took S to skate park and D for a manipedicure today too. She all of sudden is cooking and doing all these things. It is bizarre. I did dishes even though I ate a peanut butter sandwich for the second time today. Yummy! She told me I could not eat the food, and that she will buy it for the kids, and I said "ok." At least what I am buying is my own food. She then says, "there is a lot of chicken, and I can have some, but who wants to eat after they are told that the food is for the kids, and I am even lucky to be living here still.

I am with the kids almost 24/7 except when she has all this money to take them to San Diego Wild Animal Park, go to manicures, buy them things, and just do as she pleases.

I did take them to the park tonight when she came home, and D decides to walk in this dirty old pond and to catch a fish. I told her no, but she did it anyways. Well, she is 8.

That is my day.

I did have a possible job offer today, so I will see how it goes. I am excited about it.

I found so many four leaf clovers too. A good ending to a difficult day.