Don't know what to tell you on the class. Are you truly ready to let H go? Because if you take the class now, it will be that much sooner he can break all legal ties with you.
And Oh my Goodness, yes! Ever since having DS I've been a lot more aware of my mortality. Amusement park rides I used to love being on? Now I spend the whole ride stressing about if it's been properly maintained and praying it won't break down or break apart while DS is on it. And I've developed a fear of heights, to go along with the ride paranoia.
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