Oh, trust me, FIB. I am a "fer" cry from the beginning days of this when all was woe, and I thought I was going to die. Truly, I have vivid memories of the fear of dying. Now, why I thought and felt that way, I'll not understand for a long time.
The whole experience is a death of sorts! It's one of the most, if not the most, heartwrenching experiences you'll ever have. I can understand your fear
