Still trying to find my way

[Mystik]

NewMama, I never thought about the twin beds representing me and OW! Interesting analogy. Like you, I have no intention to ever lay eyes on that child, I realize it is innocent but it is still a reminder of H's betrayal of our marriage vows. And yes, DS I know will talk about the child and that is going to hurt me so badly. I think I'm still in denial about this whole baby issue.

As for blocking things out, still working on that. I have traits of OCD as well. I'm a psychologist's dream! OCD, depression, co-dependency.